Wall

     have you seen a wall? the wall that can be a border between something, it may protect either it may be a real border for two things.

are we making a wall between us? maybe unconsciously we did. the wall to separate our distance, to divide or to cut a role.

     I use to be the wall between some people to make sure they are safe and won't be hurt by the others, I selected them very carefully to protect my own stuff. well now I give it all to those lovely creature to choose their own but I feel so hard to let them go for a reason, the reason I hope they won't regret one day, you really don't know what is deep in my consciousness. here so deep before something occurs,

      I don't know how to start arguing about this but I can't say a word that is beyond my abilities. one thing they should know that I will do my own way to live behind this wall which we've built so I don't need to worry and feel guilty about what happens to you all. because when I care I yell so much and so the opposite I will not say a word for something I've left behind. 

     well I know it's not somebody's fault but it's just about time that may kill us or heal us. the time that will separate us or unite us. I always remember the way you did it at heart for my leisure, even giving all you have for me but this time I want to do the same but I do it for my little heart, I feel pitty that I know you deserve the one who is equal with you. I know you even before I wasn't here to breath and I want you smile for every second in the rest of your life.

     I love the way you listen to my problems and solve them together, the way you left all the things I hate and keeping the way I can stand for only for making me feel cozy living here. well maybe I will cry a lot deep here silently for letting it go for not saying good-bye or welcome but I just know that it's just a beginning for the thing you may call "hell" or "heaven" it's all depend on you dear. 

   I stop praying for you cause I don't wanna be blame when something bad happens to you or around. I won't change babe, but I just tolerate about the thing that will change and other thing you should remember that no one can represent the other's place for somebody's life cause God only created one person once with their uniqueness.